so this  is really stupid and
ill probably just delete it later if i see it
but 
fuck




i hate having just bouts of being completely not turned on or horny or sexual in any way,
and it being just so completely perfect, and great, and just wow. thank god.

And then just
life plunging back into the fact of
hey
ur gunna b horny now kay
just like
no
fuck off
go away
do not wanttttt