i fuckin hate school

i dont wanna go
nope
im done
ill just


do notihng i mean
its the same thing i do in school
right
right.

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IM REALLY BORED
AND I REALLY JUST WANNA SKETCH AND DRAW AND SHIT
BUT I HAVE NO SKETCH BOOKS
THEYVE ALL BEEN FILLED UP FOR LIKE 2 WEEKS.
AND IM JUST
UGHHDSFUDHSFUDF
AND I JUST
JUST
JUST
FFFFFFFFFFFFFF
im listenign to alot of mother mother cuz a prompt said sometin bout a song by em on the parapines kinkmeme adn i as just yeah ill listen ot that what you talking bout
and its just

hrrrng
megustaaa
yerssss
so

i dont wasnna sleep so
i just
i
i
night

the amount of problems i have with myself just isnt cool

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FUCK
why did i even
i mean it was just
i wasnt going to fight it for that lng?
or that seriously cause shit
i mean
it was just fuck
I mean
what
It was
fuck
he thinks hes not attractive ecause of a scar over his eye and his hair is messy all the time. 
please. i mean, half tempted to say you dont know how many times i want to run my hands over that scar? kiss that fucking scar? its a great scar. its tiny as shit but hey, its cute. 
so's his hair, i mean,, girls run their hands through it all the fucking time. its fucking fantastic. 
you dont have a nice complexion no shit your a fucking teenager like really who the fuck do youthink you fucking are dickwad.
 and he need s to stop calling me beautiful and saying love you before he goes to bed because this is why i fucking hate people who dont let other know their attracted to them when the change or vent or tease or what ever. its just unfair, or not rigtht its just. people are doing all these things thinking its fine and platonic and all that shit but if its just fucking not then you have to let them fucking kow or at lwast have them stop doign it because thats just not right mean

I started watcing Gravity Falls. (ive heard its good, and well, it was on. and nothing else  was.)
Its fucking good. especially for a disney show.I would have expected it more on Cartoon Network but hey.
pretty fucking good.

so i guess my cat tiger died

or well she was put down i guess.
she was to old or to sick or something
but just
no one really bothered to tell me?
my mom only just told me now cuz i had asked if shed seen her resently
well
yeah

Suicide Room

I just watched it (Its on netflix!)
and,
well.
I actually cant say its not what I expected, as I didnt really know what to expect going into it?
But,
it was very
moving, in an odd way.
I tihnk I like some of these films covering suicide better from over in europe than in america, just becuse,
I dont know, It kind of
Covers in in a not so
well ending way?
I dont want to say in makes it darker or not happy, because no suicide film does, none end happy. None really should. I mean, a bitter end at most i mean, yeah
But, I dont know, most american ones ive seen have just been. . . lighter? 
and I like the darkness of most of the non-american ones ive seen just because it makes it, heavier? and maybe more real.

(I will know say all the obvious things this film was subtextually saying because out right saying it is douchey. I will become the person i hate. and state the obvious. Soooo)
And this one, was just, so different from what you normally see.
I mean, dominik didnt want to die, he was against suicide the whole time, and never wanted to die.
He only wanted to die because he didnt want to live with out Sylwia.
and Slywia.
She wanted to die because she believed there was nothing to live for.
But, thats just becasue she never left her own goddamn room to find something.
Though she still found it in Dominik, I suppose, and hearing of his death. . .maybe caused her to want to live. for him. Because, I dont know, its a terrible thing when those who want to die live, and those who want to live die. We live for those who never get the chance to.
I tihnk if Dominik and Sylwia did meet, they both would have lived.
its the thing you see, like with suicide pacts sometimes?
you find people like you who understand and you can get along with. and you find a person to live for.

a big thing i could think of while watching this was the ocean doesnt move freely. it can do almost nothing of its own will. Its pushed and pulled by the gravity force of the moon.
Everything acts the way it does because something else gives it the cause to do so.

Fra Fee y u so q like srs.